I am so glad that you stopped by.
I hope that you will stick around long enough to get to know me better..learn
a little about my life
After all these days acquaintances
that begin cyberspace are often the most real and long lasting....maybe
that will be true for you all...
I do not work full time outside of my home ,I take care of my 73 year old Father. He is not in the best of health.He has had 3 heart attacks and also has Diabetes. Has had to have his left leg removed .It took 3 try's to get this done but we survived .
I will say this that it does take
alot of adjustment to do this trading places with a parent is not the easiest
job that you will ever try to do but you all can do it with the right attitude.
I would not at this point in my
life trade this for the highest paying job in the world.It gives you the
chance to repay that parent for your raising........................
I love to use my computer to talk on icq.I have made some WONDERFUL friends that have put lots of smiles on my face and in my heart.......Great program you can get it here ICQ
OK on to the main reason I decided to do
a web page.................I wonted to do this page for my MOM............................
My mother died on July 4th 1996 due to suicide
..............
I can not tell you how this has turned my entire
family's life upside down.
I miss her more today than I did yesterday.
I have come to understand to some degree as to
why she chose to end her life in this manner .
But before I get into that I wont you all to understand what effects this has on the one's that you will be leaving behind.
It will put you in such a mental state of guilt you think you will never return to a normal life.
You are always asking others and your self could I some how prevented her form doing this???????
Was there a sign and I overlooked it?
It also leaves you contemplating doing this to
your self..You know it is not the answer but you cant seem to get out of
this thing I call the puzzle.You cant fit any of the piece together .
so you get the thought that you can also stop
the pain do just what they did (wrong)
You think I cant do this because look who Iam
putting in the same place that I am at.....
I have gotten past that part of this puzzle.But
it took a lot of help to get here I went to the Lord
and he lead me back to all those that I
had shut out those who loved me the most....
Husband Family Friends I dont
have to list there names they know who they are..
Thank you all for seeing me thur this and helping
me to understand that is was not MY Fault..
I did find the answer that I have been searching for ....There was nothing that my Brothers or myself could have done to stop this ..There was no signs that we overlooked
I would like to say if you are reading this and
it has crossed your mind,As it probley has everyone's at one time or other.
That you need to stop and think of the
consequences that you are about to leave on your loved one's......................................................................................................................................
Well I wont to thank you for reading this far
and hope that you got something out of this
if nothing but to turn to someone you love
and tell them so that they will hear you.............
I would like to leave you with a poem
LOVE ME NOW.....................
If you are ever going to love me,
Love me now,while I can know.
The sweet and tender feelings.
That true affections flow.
Love me now.....
While I am living.....
Do not wait until I'm gone.
And then have it chiseled in marble.
Sweet words on ice-cold stone..
If you have tender thoughts of me..
Please tell me now.
If you wait until I am sleeping.
Never to awaken
There will be death between us.
And I wont hear you then.
So if you love me,even a little bit.
Let me know while I am living.
So I can treasure it ................................................................Author
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Pass pages for you to enjoy
Peace to you all
I hope that this will brighten your heart as it did mine I got this from a special friend via icq